On the off chance this isn't a giant troll.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=o0gBoV0ygJc

Amazing video. Thanks.

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http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=y9bVd3BspIQ

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http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=r_YOG3jMlV4

Your story doesn't exactly add up in terms of the sociological development of an infant at that age. Idea's such as "god has died" and things like "uninterested in sociallizing and I remember many times questioning the "purpose" or "usefulness" of happiness, and generally having a feeling of being above the mundane masses who only want to be happy." Wouldn't really fit unless you're talking about 5-7 years after the fact

Anyway, even so I sympathize with the story as a few key points linger ominously in my mind. I feel like I've had a few dreams where I've had the exact same thing as what you described in the first paragraph happen to me. There is something which feels like an intruder(Even in my dreams, where nothing is stable, it feels like a different consciousness) and attempts to do something along those lines. I've always been firm of will and have usually managed to get extremely aggressive with this kind of presence, talk back to it, fight it off, attempt to do the same things it's doing to me to it. As life goes on though and I sporadically have these encounters there's always the fear that the wear and tear of life, and drifting in and out of depression and good phases, I might lose out in one of these meetings and it might be a catalyst for an awful change in my life, such as you experienced (If it's just a internal dream then there's nothing to worry about obviously)

Anyway, I guess I kind of rambled too, but another thing I wanted to ask is if you could give more details about the Shaman you ended up going to. How did you find him, of what path did he follow, and how did he help you

I am skeptical as hell about anything of this nature, but you say his comments don't fit the sociological model of development? Everything he felt, and tried to conceptualize, that was incorrectly or incompletely done that young will now forever be judged in the hindsight of his current state of mind and ability to conceptualize. That is true for all of us.

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Everything he felt, and tried to conceptualize, that was incorrectly or incompletely done that young, will now forever be judged in the hindsight of his current state of mind and ability to conceptualize.

There, now its grammatically correct to get the point across, if you don't its on you. Kids don't understand greed when they're being greedy at a young age, they just want something. It isn't until later when they understand the concept of greed they associate that feeling and incident with greed, if at all.

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"You can literally say this about every memory everyone has." That was my point.

Because we conceptualize now with words, and a huge vocabulary and understanding of grammar that kids at that time don't have. Doesn't mean they can't conceive the concept, just not in the organized fashion or way we do.

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Absolutely wrong. Sit there and try to conceptualize a situation, a person, anything, without using words. You WILL NOT be able to conceptualize that as clearly, or in as complex of a manner, as you would without using words. Imagine trying to describe the relationship between colors, without words. Imagine trying to conceptualize a relationship of power, without words. Is the more powerful a king? That implies things. A president? That also implies things. You cannot describe concepts as accurately without words as with them. That is why a cat, generally, and in my opinion, will keep freaking out over the same sound instead of learning what it is and why it isn't a threat. No consistent labels, which imply things so it doesn't have to observe from a blank page, means less of a control and understanding over your ability to conceptualize.

And by the way, even THINKING, or having a word flash through your head without a voice saying it, is using a word to conceptualize. Even remembering that a word exists for that concept, is using that word to conceptualize.

Have you ever heard of ayahuasca? I had i similar experience on this stuff the main psychoactive shit in it is DMT. I remember these lizards fucking torturing my mind. It was a bad enough experience that i ended up in the hospital...since then(was about 4 years ago) a ton of things these archons told me would happen to me and the world in general has come true...i dont think they are bad entities...they way i look at it is i would have forgot everything they tried communicate if it wasnt such a scary experience...i would have never remembered any of it...like they knew it had to rip my understanding of the universe apart in order for me to gain anything from it...crazy..even typing a response to you now brought a revelation to me...

Belongs in /r/paranormal they will share with you.

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Just keep in mind that there are many skeptics over there as well and some can be very much a dick. However there are many who will support you also.

No.

it is an interesting but sad story. I wish to know more about what the sham-men did, and where did it go? Just curious.

Your story is pretty unique, you seem to be casting a net here to see if somebody else has had such an experience. But it is too rare and your net too small. I think you'll have to look for people with these experiences if you really want to find one.

How quickly did your mind recover? Just knowing what i know of neural networks you'd still have plenty of hard wiring left over that would take some time to clear out, but at least its not being actively reinforced.

Did you ever get a brain scan?

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i'll bet you could have sold him on ebay. 'I'm getting rid of this evil thing. I would highly not recommend taking it, but hey, science. Buyer be ware.'

on a more serious note it is good to hear you've rebounded. You will be of help to anybody still going through such an experience. 'don't fight it sucka fish, expel it. There is light at the end of that tunnel'

Callahan technique, sounds interesting. I think i could use a go at it for a couple things.

Food for my thoughts, if i may ask, what thoughts were its favorite food? To kill, to subvert, to destroy. When good things go bad? General emotional suffering of the host?

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fear all but fear... interesting. it would make me cringe hearing that 'there is nothing to fear but fear itself' quote with that in mind.

Did you experiment with psychedelics when you visited the shaman?

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Maybe your brain realized it was dying, and some of the basic survival structures in the brain (everybody has a "reptile brain" that is older than our "thinking" brain) appeared in your consciousness as abstract images. The evil bad feeling might have just been your "lower" survival processes saying, "fuck this is bad this is awful we're fucked we're dead," and in your altered state, you interpreted it in a unique and emotional way.

it is in many sense the "bedrock" on which your "higher" processes sit (complex, frontal cortex thoughts, etc), and is also in charge of unconscious social drives like sexuality and dominance, so you may have damaged it by not getting enough oxygen, and later all of the things it responds to in life were lessened or diminished.

In my experience demons, angels, gods, etc, etc, are all analogies for psychological concepts.

Interesting story indeed. I've never encountered reptilians, but, I do have some paranormal experiences, enough so I don't think you crazy or delusional right off. I assume you read David Icke; Try Franz Bardon's work as well. Once you understand the multidimensional aspect of this universe, NONE of this stuff is crazy. What happens, though, is we fall back to sleep, lulled by the mundane, everyday false reality we perceive when we only use our 5 senses.

My experiences, which range from(while in the dream state) being visited by multidimensionals, being aboard spacecraft(but not in an alien abduction kind of way), and visiting another planet, have shown me how little information we really have in our day to day existence. Our five senses are like five channels on a cable box, except, this universe has infinite channels. People think 5 is all there is.

They are wrong.

I hope you continue to get better. Don't fall back asleep.

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Rocky. I was in an outdoor area, sort of grand canyon-ish. I needed to enter a cave, which was shielded. To open the shield, I needed to trace certain symbols in the air on front of it. If you remember the old James Spader movie "Stargate", the symbols were similar, also like Reiki symbols(which led to my being attuned to Reiki, currently level 2). Anyway, that's all I remember. And, yes, In that way you just know something in the dream state, I knew this wasn't earth. I don't expect you or anyone to believe this, but it did happen. *shrug

You should do an AMA.

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Shills/sheeple dont need proof, they rely on the fact that people who see anything other than the norm are classed mentally unstable because that is what everyone is told to think. They cant help being ignorant sheep - imagine spending your whole life thinking one way then being told you are wrong, it would be devastating, that's why they are so defensive. As mad as your post seems, I wouldnt want to doubt you. I've never met you so I cannot judge you but I do believe there is a whole other plain of consciousness or whatever out there which we can tune in to. DMT seems to be the way. When you are younger however you would most likely have a more healthy pinneal glad which is said to be linked to human spirituality - could well be that and whatever plain you ended up on were the result of you seeing your demons, glad you are fine now. Peace man.

i find the reptilian conspiracy hillarious. but please, educate me on the subject

And by the way, even THINKING, or having a word flash through your head without a voice saying it, is using a word to conceptualize. Even remembering that a word exists for that concept, is using that word to conceptualize.