Yes, but Im starting to get over it. Im to the point where drinking only makes me feel worse. There is no longer any benefit. I am starting to enjoy having a fully functioning brain on most days and I am enjoying the weight loss.

I have started mediating and trying to focus on the more positive emotions within myself (love, compassion, gratitude, forgiveness) instead of focusing on the things I have no control over.

Im not recommending you start any of this OP. These are things one has to learn and grow into on one's own. You will either get tired of drinking or you wont. You will either grow or you wont.

Its a hard thing to do and I still occasionally miss the bottle and indulge, but every time, I regret it and the space/time between bottles is growing!

Thanks dude. I'm moving to the gulf coast very soon. Hopefully watching the waves rolling in will help put my mind at ease.

i emigrated and suggest you do the same.....

No because I have this plant called cannabis and it's always, always better than a night of drinking.

Really? I tried smoking the marijuana one time. We stayed up late eatin' candybars and watchin' movies.....it was awful.

I had a good job that prevented me from smoking. I am moving soon and I plan on toking up daily after the move. I have no desire to drink when I'm high.

I wish I had more sativa- all that's ever available is stoner weed. I like to buzz and think. Sadly the only time I ever get to smoke any decent hazes is on my bi annual trip to Dam. ..

3 months away.

Waah.

Yes boy came here to say just this.

High as f***

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Indeed, it has. I'm making myself a margarita every night now. Well, it's just a shot and a half of Jimadore tequila in a glass of Paul Newman's limeade with some ground ice, but I'm calling it a margarita, and sometimes I even put a little Grand Marnier in it, too. I'm trying to get a buzz but all I'm doing is getting cold. I' afraid I'll freeze to death before I can start feeling the effect of the tequila. It does taste damn good, though, and that's good enough for me.

Jimadore tequila

I'll excuse the spelling because you know what you're doing with that drink. Salud!

At least I spelled Paul Newman's name correctly. Jimador is correct, but, you know, the word 'Jimadore' shows up all over the place on the Internet, too. It's a bit confusing, and the confusion is all because of the tequila, of course, and no fault of my own.

Watch this 8 minute video and consider the message.

That was wonderful. Thank you!

Same thing, in a song.

I smoke weed and take walks. Does a lot to calm me down.

Ya man, dope is dope.

You a sativa or indica kinda guy?

I love the indica, but the hybrids are my favorite. Best of both worlds.

Yes.

Yep, it was the only way I could fight the shills, but it seems like they've died down and I'm just starting to get headaches lol

Hey!

Pssst!

Down here.

(Try some weed bro)

I'm sick of paying 75 bucks a week for weed

Yeah I spend about the same in £ I don't drink however... so it's just background money at this stage. My wife's from the states and I used to get crazy weed when we lived in NY- now I get bumped £60 for a Q.... i really need weed to get legalised here.

Don't get me wrong I love weed, but where I live it's 75-80 a q and it's lazy weed that makes me have pot tits. By the time I get my big boy job I pray that weed is legal

80 a Q?!!! What part of North Korea are you from?! Haha Trust me bro Im late 20s and a daily weed smoker from age 15. In order to remain a diligent stoner without compromising professional\academic achievement, you need to find a decent link for thai weed (red strings, tastes bit bushy) - and just smoke that in the week. Save the headbanging dr green Thumb Rastamandan for the weekend. My first year outta uni I lived on proplus and modafinil - sobriety and a clear head to work with, will become increasingly attractive.

Haha it's expensive in the Middle America unless you sell it yourself! Yea dude actually a friend of mine showed me wake alert as an alternative to adderall (because it's basically meth) and I love that stuff. I've heard if you take a lot tho and can hurt your bones.

Wakelert is cool- adderall? Not so much. We don't get crazy hype pills like you guys. lol I don't plan to take anywhere near to have those issues - 1 on weekdays is fine - my industry is pretty intense so I have to be on my shit most days. When I retire I plan on smoking indefinitely, from morning till night. Science will have advanced so that my quality of life isn't ruined... or no. Either way I'll be high so cool

The best thing about legalized weed is having your own garden, weed in the stores is shit.

So are you like 12?

Yes

Hey russian321 how's it going?

Why the fuck would I be Russian 321?

HAHAHA DIDNT HE GET OUTED FOR CONCERN TROLLING? Look at your posts -- oh wait I can't because they got removed. Probably for more concern trolling lol

actually it's /r/news /r/worldnews /r/politics etc that make me want to drink...

Good point dude.

When I first started redpilling myself I had the urge to get drunk and forget about everything. But after the initial shock, it has stopped being so hard on me. Smoking weed really does help me, but it's not for everyone. Just know that you aren't alone and I hope you feel better! Stay strong!

Thanks princess! I do enjoy the ganja and I am excited about being able to enjoy it again. Alcohol is terrible in every way. It is so cheap and on every corner where I live. It's the easiest and most dangerous addiction to have.

Yes and it can be really depressing to find out the truth. I was also getting in the habit of drinking while I researched and I realized I was getting drunk every night. And It only made me more depressed in the long run. Now I am trying to focus on myself and being healthy, physically and emotionally. I do find a small comfort in knowing that I can come here and find like-minded people.

You sound like I was when i was in the depression stage. It's pretty confronting when harsh realities like what's talked about in here really sink into your mind.

My only advice is to have a break from reddit etc until you have your head in a good place. If you keep pounding your mind with this stuff it'll only do damage to you, and that's part of the game: to wear you down so you feel like shit, or stop caring and just go along with the other plebs that live in ignorance.

It also helps to talk about it like you have here in this post.

Alone we are weak, strong when we are united.

Ps: as a fellow drinker, I recommend staying off drinking anything over 5% alc/vol until you feel better. I didn't and I fell into a deep hole that took some time to get out of.

If you need a change of pace, reddit-wise, try /r/C_S_T. They are quite nice people over there.

Thank you

Pussy.

Hahaha! You remind me of myself. Go fuck yourself buddy!

Sounds like incoherent nonsense from a drunk.

It was a pretty coherent "go fuck yourself." I'm sorting some shit out and trying to make some positive changes. Go be a douche elsewhere.

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Haha no, but it doesn't help. and a lot of my rants can sound like a few of the shitposts around here hahah

I swear at least half of r/conspiracy users probably smoke lol

Thanks for the comments. I am optimistic about my future. I'm moving to a place where alcohol is scarce and buds are readily available.

I have become distressed, yea

This. Fuck everyone. They're just stealing our oxygen. Wait. We'll be bulldozed into the mass graves just like everyone else, except, maybe just before we die, someone next to you will say, "Why didn't you warn us?"

I'm trying to go outside and just smile and enjoy my body's last days here.

Hahaha! You remind me of myself. Go fuck yourself buddy!

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