I'll bite. Have you gone to law enforcement about it?

Yes. Many times. As many people I could tell, I told.

I was met with only harassment and detectives relaying everything I said to abusers so that said abusers could further intimedate me into shutting the fuck up.

La Tourelle? C.U.T.?

I am so sorry you had to go through this. <3

Magick and the Occult in general...how deeply were rituals involving them tied to your abuse, if at all? Thanks for taking the time.

The dark magic things that happened to me are the foggiest memories I have.

It happened in old basements of old buildings (mostly) and involved torture by men in all black with black hats. Sometimes I was buried alive and woke up with all this dirt under my nails.

I know worse things happened Easter and Halloween.

I know there was blood. I know it was dark and horrifying, but I don't remember much else.

I'm glad you dont remember, but if you remember where those buildings are, bliss then

Here's some starter questions :

1.) What part of the world were you in when this happened?

2.) What sort of background did your parents have?

3.) Are any of the people involved known figures?

Most importantly, are you okay?

I lived in Colorado, US when it started. Most of the bad stuff happened in the Midwestern US.

My dad's family has horrific abuse and pedophilia going back generations. All farmers. All Christian. All Midwestern.(Nebraska) My mom's family I believe has less sophisticated abuse but still horrible and sexual. In the deep South.

I don't remember names but there were fancy rich men. And scary secret military bases where really scary shit went down.

I'm as okay as I can be I think. Can't find therapists trained for this shit. I hope speaking out helps me reach other survivors so we can help one another.

Thanks for asking if I'm okay.

https://www.google.com/amp/s/amp.reddit.com/r/C_S_T/comments/5c5218/premise_faggot_was_originally_a_slur_for_fascists/

Does that post resonate with you?

It didn't.

I'm a girl though. So maybe it doesn't apply so much?

The rise of modern fascism (hitler Mussolini etc ) seems to correlate with the modern hand held camera perfect for black mail. You mention military bases. Does it seem to you like there's black mail involved? I recently read that mao raped a 14 year old girl. I think there's a lot of evidence that hurler was a pedo himself. To much there to ignore in my opinion. Sometimes I feel like the only way all this madness could ever perpetuate is if there was a vast blackmail network keeping everything shitty.

My parents got involved in some organized crime group because they're pedophiles. Sometimes I think this was orchestrated by my dad or his family because my mom is a lot younger than him, but yes. Pedophilia is a way to have power over others.

Thanks for being so brave. Wish I could hug you!

hug smile

Why do you believe you were affected by mind control, and by whom?

My dissociative identity disorder system was deliberately created by my abusers. Electro shock and horrific abuse was used to reinforce it. This started when I was only about 3 years old.

My dad knows how to call out certain alters and did until I was in high school. No I don't know how he did it but it doesn't involve words and touching my forehead somehow.

Once, my dad asked me if I remembered all the horrible things he'd done and when I said I had no goddamn idea what he was talking about he said, "It worked?!"

A stupid ass thing for him to say, but his sincerity leads me to believe this was intentional.

Any figures or authority?

Fancy rich old men. Always white. Always middle aged.

Doctors for sure.

Still don't know what to think of that.

I suspect it might be one reason why they do not want the public to have a single payer medical care program.

You hotdog or pizza? How did you get roped into it? When did you know it was wrong? Did you ever think it was normal?

Do the tptb think it's fun or take it seriously?

From what I can see (and I was never meant to be of use to anyone important, though I was part of something that catered to important people) it's a tool and a form of entertainment. It's also a source of income. People do not fuck around making money off of kids.

How explicitly ritualized were your experiences?

Definitely worse and more organized during Easter and Halloween seasons. Rituals always involved an older man dressed all in black with a black hat.

Easter especially, I was placed on an altar. There were candles and I didn't understand why my mom let it happen. I was very young.

Yea I think there was religion at the heart of it all. These people were serious as fuck about what they were doing.

Was your "attackers" jewish?

How did you go from victim to survivor?

Do you think pizzagate is true from suffering this yourself?

I don't know but it's the reason I started looking into conspiracies in general. I think pizzagate makes people think ritual abuse and trafficking of children is something that is isolated to one group or one place or one time period.

Sorry, y'all. It's everywhere and has been for some time.

Well I'm sorry for what you've been through I'm into conspiracies and stuff and I know that's not the case as well. I really hope you're in a better place now. Respect for speaking up .

Do you have multiple personalities or alter egos?

Yea. I haven't been professionally diagnosed, but I know of a surface level of parts and many other layers of lots and lots of parts. I just don't have access to those layers except in dreams mostly.

Thanks. Feel free to xpost this to /r/conspiracyundone

That's a laundry list of god awful shit, OP. For your sake, I'm hoping you're just bored on a Saturday night. If true, way to rise up and discuss it.

Did any of these rituals take place in Brooklyn?

Not that I remember.

Mainly Cheyenne Mountain (the zoo and the shrine of the sun) Colorado

Random places near Cheyenne mountain and Greeley colorado

And old buildings in and around ft Riley ks

What years at Cheyenne Mtn zoo?

Like 95-97? I might be wrong. I was really young.

I was just reading about the son of Sam killer and his claims of being in a satanic cult. The investigators seem to have just brushed that aspect aside. Something about Satan seems to trigger people into disbelief. As someone who has experienced this do you notice satanic elements in everyday life that others probably don't notice? How prevalent would you say this actually is? How do people get roped into this life?

What's your favorite movie

I've been watching Its Always Sunny lately. The first season.

oh that's classic. used to watch it all the time, I still have the dvd set.

When Dee and Dennis try to get on welfare omg

that's how I discovered what crack was, so hilarious.

damn, it's been a long time. I haven't watched since season 3.

Shiiiit watch it all.

Check out curb your enthusiasm it's a great show

It's pretty, pretty, pretty good

is in the second season it really takes of!:P

Did you see any famous or well known people on both sides of the abuse?

No. Just shitty ass johns and scary people whose faces I "should forget"

Was your family involved with a cult or some kind of "secret" society?

Is your family considered 'rich' or well off?

Were you ever abused by celebs ppl would know of?

Did you ever have to go to another country?

Do you have any memories of being at military bases?

What kind of mind control technique can you discuss?

My dad's family comes from a long mysterious line of wtf abusive psychopaths.

My paternal grandparents are rich but keep a low profile. I've seen their stacks of gold bricks and boulders of crystals they keep even though they live in an older house in a regular neighborhood. They buy expensive shit in cash and haven't worked since the 70s.

Don't remember celebrities.

I don't know about other countries. I remember being at airports frequently but I have no idea why I remember that. I don't like to be near airports.

ALLLLL of my shit happened on or near millitary bases. In my opinion, this is where people should be looking. Not random ass pizza places. (I'm sorry y'all. But it's what I think.) Especially underground millitary bases. (toddler hood spent near NORAD; have many dreams where I'm being driven up to the gates.)

The mind control I experienced involved sexual and physical torture, paired with watching Fantasia and snow white over and over again. I was also taken to the Cheyenne mountain zoo at night and made to go through some kind of crazy survival shit in the fake landscape exhibits. Suicide programming done at the shrine of the sun, which can only be accessed through the Cheyenne mountain zoo, from my understanding.

Still deprogramming with the help of Allison Miller, the author and psychologist I trust most. I have tried therapy but there is simply no training for trauma based mind control.

I hope talking like this will help shine a spotlight on the need for that training.

Oh my word. It makes sense in an awful way, military bases would be the last place any journalist, investigator or civilian would be able to go and check out.

I pray for your recovery.

Agree about the military bases, I've read several books about MKULTRA. It's difficult for most ppl to believe this has been going on for so long, almost right in the open.

Do you think you would ever write about your life?

Thank you so much for sharing, it really is beyond brave of you to speak out. I hope you are 'safe' & continue to heal.

have you ever been triggerd by mainstream media?

if so care to elaborate?

Jesus fuck. Winter soldier got me pretty bad. The man with the notebook naming off shit to bring out alters. That's really how it works.

Stranger Things, the underground labs and stuff...I loved that show and watched all of it but it did make me really scared for a while.

Mk ultra stuff, basically.

I don't know who was behind what happened to me, but my triggers seem to point to millitary/government stuff.

fascinating. I mean it sucks you had to go though such horrific stuff but its cool that you are talking bout it.

9 year old me would be pissed if I wasn't.

also. you mention Stranger Things you may already know but its original tittle was supposed to be Montauk wich is supposedly part of some special access programs that delt with super soldiers telakenisis and some other wild stuff

Yea, I know what you're talking about. I looked into that. I look into a lot of stuff but it's rare something resonates with me.

Drawing conclusions is dangerous when you don't remember most of your life so I try to be careful.

can you elaborate your connections to military/government stuff?

Do you speak to your family? They seem like truly shitty people. I hope everything gets better for you.

Fuuuck no.

They all pretend I'm crazy and I live my life without them.

I'm okay with it. There are no children except my own.

When other children are born, that might be a different story.

If only you had evidence to expose them, I totally would.

At what age and How did it end for you?

I got away from my parents in my early 20s.

I think whatever organized group had no use for my family before that though. My dad's programming started breaking down and he was seeing shit that wasn't there. Attempted suicide, refused to go when deployed (millitary) etc. But he was never dishonorably discharged. He is retired now and living out his days attempting to forget what he's done.

Good luck, ya son of a bitch.

His programming?

I am very sorry for your circumstance.

I have had a hard time believing the idea that there is a secret Luciferian (or some form of Occultist) network filled with well-connected participants.

I hate to be insensitive but I have to ask this, but what is the nature of the ritual abuse? Are the participants doing the rituals with a genuine belief that they are granted some power or is it just sadist sick form foreplay? Have witnessed anything supernatural occuring?

The holiday rituals are the ones where they seemed to believe something would happen as a result of what they did.

Other times, like in the basement of the church, I believe it was mostly conditioning little girls to be scared and little boys to be sadistic.

Im so sorry you had to go through that. I hope life finally treats you better..

Have you named names?

There are people out here that will see to it that heads roll

I tried to report some murders because I really just wanted my parents in prison. I was really scared of them for a while.

Was just harassed and got hang-up calls and stuff.

You mentioned you have children. Do you, yourself, ever have any thoughts about harming them?

Absolutely not.

And I'm firmly against physical punishment of any kind. I'm horrified that people brag about hurting their children like they're being good parents. Fuck those people.

Were they satantic rituals? Were they the reverse of catholic rituals? Were you ever in churches? Undergroung lairs? Have you witnessed sacrifes? Were goverment officials involved? Were there secret societies that you were aware of? Masonic? What kind of symbols were used in your mind control? Are you still triggered? Who was your handler? Did your handler change?

Are you one of the people from the Franklin affair?

I'm too young. But I wonder about my dad's family, who is from Nebraska.

This was my same thought. I recently read the book about it and thought of it as soon as Nebraska was mentioned 😓

What to investigaye in case you believe you were mind controlled as a child in a catholic school?

https://ritualabuse.us/ritualabuse/

http://endritualabuse.org/kinds-of-torture-endured-in-ritual-abuse-and-trauma-based-mind-control/

Lots of reflection and writing. Pay attention to your dreams.

Will you take bloody revenge?

I'm over bloodiness I think. I would rather just have everyone know what they did.

I believe you. From the age of 13 to 16 my dad sold me to his many well off "friends" some of whom were in the police force. There was literally no place to go for refuge...finally managed to get away at 16... by getting pregnant...it was the one thing he couldn't abide...

I am so sorry this happened to you.

Do you remember any specific places? Do you remember any specific ways that this all went about - like how it was organized or who it was organized with? You mention military/doctors.. have you browsed any public information of military/doctors to see if you recognize any? If you did, a sting operation could be put in place.

Also, how old are you now? When did this happen?

watching Fantasia and snow white over and over again? where?

Sometimes at home. Sometimes other places, but I don't remember what those places were.

All I want for is the sick bastards that do this shit be brought to justice.

feel free to not answer:

Have you ever tried finding any press you can trust to talk to?

Have you looked into the Hampstead cover up? (in UK) (please don't if you think hearing other childrens stories about SRA will trigger you)

Do you know where/what happened to your biological parents? Hardly real parents, I hope they have/will be brought to justice.

There is a lady called Mellisa Honeybee on youtube https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCBvKlVzDz3611dvHHo_wGlA she is a wonderful person and very kind, gentle hearted. She works very hard to try and expose as much evil as possible. To me, from her videos it shows she offers a huge amount of support to those who reach out to her. I find her to be very trust worthy and if you ever wanted your story to go more public to help expose, she'd do anything to help you I bet.

I'm so sorry this happened to you. I hope you are as ok as you possibly can be and can find hope and help anywhere you look. I wish I could give you a hug.

I'm so sorry for what you have been through. I had a hard time believing in the satanic rituals until my therapists told me she has nightmares from working with people who went through it. She said the stories she heard still haunt her, and that there is a very large satanic following in my city.

I don't really have a question, but would like to suggest looking for a therapist who specializes in PTSD, and sexual abuse, if you haven't already. They may be able to direct you to someone who specializes in your kind of trauma.

Can I interview you for a school project? I'm not joking, I genuinely want to learn more about your story other than just 2 posts on Reddit ya feel?

How many people you met were part of the illuminati?

When they raped you were they really rough?

We're a lot of men homosexual?

Do you think most of them were luciferians?

How did it feel to be under mind control?

How did it feel living and participating/being a victim with these psychopaths?

So when they fly you around to be trafficked, they're making money right?

Did you see anyone being sacrificed or participated in one?

Hi, this is very brave of you to talk about this stuff, I hope you find some way of healing. Have you heard of Cathy O'Brien, she wrote a book about her experience as a project monarch presidential sex slave. The book is called "tranceformation of America". I would suggest reading it, but it is extremely graphic so you may want to be careful it doesnt trigger you somehow.

From my understanding, she with the help of her husband, managed to remember what had happened to her through some sort of writing therapy where she was able to write down the memories trapped in her unconscious mind. She released a book about that, I think it's called "A time to heal" so maybe that might help you.

Best wishes.

Well I'm sorry for what you've been through I'm into conspiracies and stuff and I know that's not the case as well. I really hope you're in a better place now. Respect for speaking up .

The rise of modern fascism (hitler Mussolini etc ) seems to correlate with the modern hand held camera perfect for black mail. You mention military bases. Does it seem to you like there's black mail involved? I recently read that mao raped a 14 year old girl. I think there's a lot of evidence that hurler was a pedo himself. To much there to ignore in my opinion. Sometimes I feel like the only way all this madness could ever perpetuate is if there was a vast blackmail network keeping everything shitty.