How about don't kill yourself.

Why not? Life is pointless if you're suffering with no end in sight. I firmly support the right to die if you're quality of life doesn't fit within your own parameters.

there are a ridiculous number of reasons to keep living.

for one, suicide makes life a living hell for everyone who knew you- family, friends, even coworkers. not to mention whoever has to clean up after you when you bleed out and empty your bowels all over the place. also, what if you fail? things will be so much worse, and you'll never get another shot. even guns don't always work.

but more importantly, i bet you haven't even travelled outside the country in search of a solution. until you do that, suicide shouldn't even be an option.

the world has so much awesome shit in it- places where you don't need money, where you have something that people need, where you can experience things that your depressed mind won't even allow you consider.

if you're gonna die anyway, why not rob a bank and distribute the money in handfuls behind your getaway car? why not buy a deer rifle and take out a few goldman sachs execs?

see if making the world a better place changes how you feel about suicide.

places where you don't need money

elaborate please

http://www.survivalinsight.com/live-sustaining-life.html

Yes, you still need some start-up money. But that's mostly for electricity + running water. If you can manage to settle near a spring, and do everything the analog way, you really don't need to worry about it.

You really need to have strong survival instincts, however. And possibly have a gun for back-up. You know: because bears.

EDIT: ...or find a community of people already living this way, and integrate.

well, there are both places that consciously avoid money like hippy communes and monasteries, as well as places where the cost of living is so low that you can have a good life without working all the time. i'm thinking of many places in the tropical third world where a fishing pole and a shack is all you need to live a peaceful and happy life on the beach.

Do you fear death? Thoughts on the possibility of an afterlife?

I'm terrified of death. Anyone that says they're not is lying. I think there's a good chance of an afterlife. I've smoked DMT and had a strange experience. But it's all speculation really. I'll just say I don't know and be honest with myself.

Let /r/suicidewatch help, please.

I'm banned from that subreddit for being "pro-choice" when it comes to suicide.

Don't listen to people about suicide, it feeds into the negative energy loop. If you want to off yourself do it, your a free human being. The thing I would recommend is to try everything you feel like you should try before you do it. Don't be lazy and take the easy way out.

I am not qualified to give advice on Suicide Prevention. I suspect the same of the majority of reddit (no offense to the professionals out there.)

National Suicide Prevention Lifeline

1-800-273-8255

I'm actually not afraid to die. I don't want to die yet (I'm 21), but I know that when it happens its just my time to go...

Have you seen the movie the Grey? It deals with this subject.

I'm sorry you have suffered so much. These are extremely hard lessons to deal with. You don't have to fear death. Your physical body is temporary. You soul will live on. It is eternal and indestructible. The best and brightest in you remains untouched, unscathed in all this. I hope you can know this. You have power enough in you now to make a difference. I know i'm in no position to give you advice in this, you will make your own choices but i suggest you go on living until your time has come and serve as an example and testament to human will. Have you tried yoga or meditation? Medication is supposed to heal the body (this is not always so). Meditation will heal the spirit. Every time.

Also i commend you in your honesty. You may still have part to play in all this.

Think about it this way. It aint like you will ever get to miss out on death. It'll come sooner or later no matter what. You will not miss it I guarantee you.

But there could still be a thing or two about life you may miss out on. I know it's not a very good argument but it's the best I could come up with.

Make sure you fairly and judiciously examine your quality though, could be your judgement might be impaired. Also states of mind and body are very transitory so in that it's a bit like Kansas weather, if you don't like it wait a minute and it will change. Now I know that it takes more than a minute but in the whole grand scheme of things it's closer to a minute than anything else.

By the way I too am pro-choice when it comes to suicide but I'm sure glad I didn't do it when it was a very powerful thought in my mind since shit changed and continued to for decades. Strength comes and goes in different forms and sometimes you have to wait it out to get another round.

because you'll re incarnate in a WAY more complicated scenario...to learn what you incarnated to learn now. And since you are planning to trow away this opportunity, next one will be worst.

The other side doesn't really like suicidal...it's a fucking waste of time (to name just 1 thing) for every-fucking-body

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I have a great relationship with my family. However I don't like the direction the world is heading and the atrocities committed through history and today. I don't have the mental energy to do much of anything.

Dude, get off or r/conspiracy, reddit and unplug from all media for a while. You don't have to pay attention to things you have no power to change yourself. I guarantee you your quality of life will get a lot better if you stop paying attention to all this stuff.

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No doubt I'd feel bad. But there's comes a point when you just say enough is enough. I haven't smoked ganja in years actually. I have no connects and live in my parents house and don't want any legal troubles for them.

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Also greatly enhances negative emotional states. Depressed people stay the fuck clear of weed.

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In my experience that doesn't quite add up, but correct me if you have a decent source. Weed firstly enhances emotional sensations (and physical too), and secondly focuses the mind internally so you will be forced to ruminate over any stresses in your life heavily for the duration of the effect. As someone who suffers from depression and anxiety, I'd consider weed the very last thing to consider as treatment.

I'm not in a medical state. But if I was I'd take full advantage of that.

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I don't leave the house much because of my health problems. I suppose I could make it a mission to find some weed though lol. This is kind of a hipster town. Do hipsters tend to like weed?

Does the earth revolve around the sun? Fuck yes it does. Happy hunting!

Citation needed.

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Can you give me a source on the health benefits of weed for diagnosed schizophrenics?

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Fair enough. Personally, I've had substantially different anecdotal experiences with it, with a number of friends turning into mental mush in their adult years, including one with severe schizophrenia.

But we'll just keep on pretending marijuana is totally harmless. (It should still be legalised, I just find the utter delusion about its lack of harm, especially when hidden behind "reefer madness fearmongering" to be ridiculous.)

I'd be skeptical of this having been on the receiving end of someone who became schizophrenic after getting heavily into Marijuana

On a realistic level, you should not commit suicide and devote your energies to getting revenge on the people who've fucked you around. I'm sure they'd all love it if you killed yourself. They sure wouldn't have to worry about you anymore. If anyone fucked with me like this, I'd want them shitting themselves daily wondering where I was and what I was planning. You cannot make it easy on your tormentors.

Kids literally starving on the streets across the world and here you are attention seeking on the Internet how life your miserable is..

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I'm going to tell you: I just spent over an hour writing a thoughtful and impassioned reply, only to have it blotted out by a software glitch.

I'll keep it short and to the point: I"m guessing you're 25 or so. I"m 53. Now I'm not going to go all 'You young pussy' on you at all. But I want to raise two points:

1. You are probably going through 'poison(mercury) and drug (anti-psychotic) withdrawl/shock'. Probably not a good time to make life-ending decisions.

2. You are going through, and especially AFRAID, that this period could go on for a long time - a year, two, five...

3. You are afraid it's permanent.

To address these things: 1. In all the above situations, nearly all drugs/poisons damage will reverse over time. Yes, you are afraid of mercury fillings. DId you get them at infancy? If not, you are probably not terribly damaged. (I got my first at 13 - and I'm a college professor now) 2. I mentioned earlier that I thought you were around 25 - here's the deal: Wait until 50. You will look at the worst case scenario, say 5 years of 'getting back to normal' as a blip in your history. Really. "Oh yeah, 25 years ago I was really a mess - until 30!" In the past 20 years I've HAD A BLAST..."

And of course, 4: If you are just some idiot posting this as a troller, DIE A SLOW, EXISTENTIALLY HORRIBLE DEATH.

Thanks for your response. I'm afraid the damage is permanent. I'll give it a few years though I guess.

Piracetam, fish oil, centrophenoxine, acetyl L carnitine and L-Tyrosine. All legal and available from amazon or eBay. Does wonders for brain regeneration and depression.

I've tried all the above. When I say I've tried everything. I mean virtually everything.

dude, I don't know where you live, but cannabis oil has been proven to stimulate neuron growth and protect healthy cells. Its been able to cure a very wide verity of illness. If your gonna off yourself, you might as well try everything first. It would help if you knew exactly what was wrong with you. If its just a mood thing then try working about, eating healthy, and smoking pot.

Edit: just saw mercury toxicity. There are flushes you can take I'm pretty sure. I watched a video on autistic kids who do a mercury flush and they get improved cognitive function. I'll have to look for you.

I'll look into that.

cannastrips are a form of canabis oil for medical purposes gaining traction in the states. I posted a link in a reply i made, but here is that same link to their facebook promo. I've only heard of good things, and the application is simply phenomenal.

http://www.facebook.com/pages/Cannastrips/335860396507173

like what? what do you think your diagnosis is?

Nootropics, heavy metal chelators, supplements, all kinds of shit. Mercury toxicity.

if you got your fillings out, your mercury levels should be declining- you should be getting better. if this happened years ago and you're still needing psych meds, maybe you just need psych meds on your own.

how do you know you aren't schizophrenic?

Perhaps I am schizophrenic. But if I am then why aren't the anti psychotics helping me? I've listened to my doctors and parents and all that and it's not helped me one bit. Fuck it.

often people with schizophrenia will think their meds aren't helping, when they actually are. schizophrenia is consistent with fixating on being poisoned as a possible cause for your feelings.

the number one thing i would tell you is what i mentioned before- get your mercury levels checked, endocrine function checked.

if those two things are normal, you are NOT being poisoned. you'll need to consider other possibilities. and being suicidal, you're simply not in any condition to be figuring that out for yourself. maybe you could get placed as an inpatient? you'll need intensive meds AND talk therapy.

Sometimes it takes the right medication for it to work, and medication takes a long time to kick in, it's a lengthy process but hopefully you have a good doctor that can work with you on finding the right medication for you,.

What meds were you on? I could point you in the direction of a number of restorative supplement/unscheduled pharma options, if I can know what you've suffered. I'm also assuming you've spent time on Longecity's forum?

Have you done a green juice fast? Your body can rebuild from nearly anything on that as long as your digestive system somewhat works. Have you gotten a hold of a zapper or some orgonite?

Yea, as the other guy said, cannabis oil, will INDEED stimulate new neuron growth. Most people's brains are pretty fucked from vaccinations and amalgams. It's almost never too late though.

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Mercury_poisoning#Treatment Maybe try http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Chelation_therapy before doing anything quite as drastic as suicide.

"I'm going to tell you: I just spent over an hour writing a thoughtful and impassioned reply, only to have it blotted out by a software glitch."

I hate that.

America, I knew anti-psychotics were heavy drugs but I didn't know how bad they actually were until I got on them. I'm currently still on them because I have no other choice.

I know a chick who was on a large number of pills. She had a rtough year trying to get off of them. She still has insomnia, but she's doing a lot better. Her boyfriend (the first she's had in years) also said she's doing better. I met her just when she was starting to get off of them. She didn't remember that encounter. She got better even from my casual meeting.

My ex-girl friend was also on a lot of anti-depression / anxiety stuff. She kicked it. She also got better. In fact her OCD has, as far as I know, evaporated. If not I'm hard pressed to spot it.

hey man, been there, went manic depressive for about six months. Found out i'm bipolar. At the same time though, i never bowed in, as i came up with a really depressing fact.

The subjective labeling that created these terms and the need for medication is just a method to route out traits which influence free will, rationality, and thought. You are living proof of a theory of mine, as i am also proof that this theory holds true. I call it the stupid coefficient.

For generations since mass media has existed, a mold has been set in what is "normal" and what type of eccentricity is beyond that. We created a need for medication, and started viewing these eccentricities as a problem. They are a gift and a curse. They are part of our personalities. Ain't nothing really wrong with us, but we are instilled with the thought that something could be, creating self doubt, and making enemies for ourselves when there need not be.

This is where the stupid coefficient comes into play. When people find out they have a "problem" they become self conscious about it. These people are usually intelligent. Moreso than the typical tsa worker, or the average guy. Three things can happen, they can try to fit into societies mold and adapt to characteristics that are more desirable as deemed by our moronic peers, you know the type, celebrity gossipers, believers of our current form of democracy, people who watch tv basically, or take up pointless menial tasks like a sport or some other non consequential matter. By fitting in to what society wants with medication and the like, we give up the fight, and become apathetic, no longer caring to suffer from the truth of the matter, that shit is fucked up and we can't change it on a whim, that hard work and co-operation are the only ways to fix it.

With that said, the three options for this great stupid coefficient proceed as follows. You can become a stereotypical member of society and be apathetic and non consequential.

You can continue down the path you take of wanting to know the truth to two outcomes, either you learn to deal with it and see the truth as a rational being, or you progressively get crazier and your logic starts to slip. Either way, if you learn how to deal with it while remaining rational, many will still consider you crazy because again, they are ignorant cunts and can't bother to learn said truth or are just too beaten down by society themselves that they gave up the fight years ago and learned how to live with a dose of apathy, leading us back to option 1, molding ourselves into what other people want us to be.

Or option three, when we dip off into the crazy or just give up on the fight, no longer willing to mould ourselves to be another stereotype in society, and no longer willing to continue learning the truth about said society, we as intelligent beings more often then not commit suicide, thus removing these undesirable traits as deemed by pharmaceutical companies but which have existed in human beings since the dawn of man for some reason (thus proving through evolution that these traits are a part of society for a reason, since evolution dictates that these traits would have been rid of a long time ago if it was the case)

Now, where it gets funny. This subjective labeling in the past couple generations has lead to a lot of self doubt on the part of the intelligent people, allowing the dumb to flourish. Smart people don't get laid as much unless they have confidence in themselves. We breed less, and pass off less of our genetic material through to the next generation of earth. Perpetuating the problem. If this persists, people like you and me won't be around as skeptics to give a damn about society.

Don't let the stupid people win. No need for that shit. Death becomes of us all eventually regardless. If you really want to rush it, start smoking like i do. I'm not even trying to shy away from cancer, and i can't wait until i die. I think of it every day. I'm excited to find out about my own theory on death. But i realized this simple fact, that stupid people have been able to outbreed intelligence. And that scared me about death. I fear that if i die, so too will part of the human element that is absolutely essential in these dire times. I've applied george carlin's philosophy of just being an outside observer to the issues i am passionate about, and utilize a healthy dose of schadenfreude. I got a tattoo that reflects the sad reality. We all die eventually, no need to rush it.

I'm pretty sure i'm right with this stupid coefficient though, this theory has existed for a very long time, other people have their own variations on it, and the deterioration of our education in our respective nations is definitely of consideration when an application such as this postulation becomes accepted as more than a theory.

Don't give up your voice. Live for the small things. The flowers, the smile on a childs face, the sunrise and sunset. Live for the birds chatter, the breeze as it carries those floral aroma's. Meditate, work past the insanity that you are driven to. Realize it's not your fault, you are merely a mortal, but you are doing the best you can for your community, your friends, family, to promote the aspects of life you see as fitting. We can't change the world alone. We have to do it together. And i'd loathe to add you to my stupid coefficient's third option. I need your help, the world needs it. You will get your peace of mind in time, no need to rush it. Look for the peace of mind that is readily available, and do not let this manic world drag you in to it's shenanigans. Call bull shit, laugh, and move on to listening to the birds, watching butterflies, and being a socially responsible adult. We need more of these traits present in humanity, not less. People need to learn how to think again, what education is, not shy away from it because the truth hurts. Apathy, my first option, is healthy as a defense mechanism, but i prefer schadenfreude. Pain heals and chicks dig scars man.

I got a tattoo to live with that pain, and remind me of it. It cries a tear of blood for humanity, for my stupid coefficient. It signifies the sadness that comes with the quest for knowledge. I don't want to have it changed to include a pool of blood to signify you and the millions of others who chose the easy way out. I think it's good enough with a tear drop.

http://www.facebook.com/pages/Cannastrips/335860396507173

You, are an amazing human being, keep being yourself !!

How do you know your problems are from the filling?

Because this all transpired immediately after the procedure of getting the mercury removed. Might I add that the fillings that replaced the mercury fillings are called composites. They're white colored fillings that contain bisphenol A. I'm not sure if you're aware of what bisphenol A is but it's bad news. I've been having thyroid problems and all kinds of other hormonal problems including low T.

It just so happens that this is a particular field of interest for me as my entire family is dentists. One of our best family dentist friends actually was one of the heads of the fight against mercury fillings during the 90's. He lost his dental certification because of the proof he was bringing to the table showing mercury filling connections with cancer and other diseases/illnesses. I am currently trying to track him down to do a video interview. People need to start waking up to the fact that doctors/dentists are not your friends and the medical/dental industry has its pit falls as well.

I am sorry this happened to you...smoke some weed and say fuck it :)

Please do an interview and spread the word about the dangers of mercury fillings. So many people are being fucked over and no body even is aware of the problem. This issue will be bigger than the lawsuits against the tobacco industry. Mark my fucking words. Goddammit I'm pissed off.

you probably don't want to hear this but mercury and BPA are most likely not what is causing your suicidal feelings.

If you already know you have hypothyroidism, that's a start. you've probably already seen a doctor about this, but see one more. don't give them previous medical records to bias them (except labs/imaging). get hormone levels checked, can get mercury checked, can tell them to check endocrine function (BPA is endocrine disruptor). i bet they'll find that you don't have mercury poisoning at all, but that your hypothyroidism/hormone levels and organic depression is what is causing this.

fixating on mercury poisoning when mercury is cleared by the body in under a month is not productive. neither is contemplating suicide.

It really could be that big but its really never talked about..

We need to shed light on the subject asap

Yep. Do that interview please and spread the word. Upload it to youtube then PM me and I'll try and make the video popular and get views.

So you self diagnosed yourself with mercury poisoning. The fact that you think the symptoms were there as soon as they were removed should be telling...

Mercury/silver fillings aren't the best (and should be banned, but anyway), but it's highly unlikely that you were "poisoned" by them, unless you literally took them out and vaporized the mercury and then inhaled it all. The amount that leaches from a filling is less than you get just from breathing in air, or eating (particularly fish).

And now you think you are being poisoned by you composite fillings. It sounds like you have some other paranoid issues that's causing you to fixate on something. Like you thought mold was causing it before hand then you discovered that there was mercury in your fillings.

You have issues, but it's not caused by the stuff that's in your mouth. You likely had these issues long before you had any fillings. You really sound like you're more of a hypochondriac.

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You have the power to change your existence. You shape your reality every day. Every thought that you think projects itself into your reality in some way or another. ....thank you

Thanks for your response. I've already tried the whole detox process but haven't had any real success. Except I did get that "mercury rash" several times when attempting to detox. I was sitting in my bathtub full of epsom salt feeling like I was dying as the mercury was being excreted out of my skin. The mercury is concentrated now in my brain though and I'm not sure how to get rid of it.

I will withdraw from the anti-psychotics slowly to avoid any complications.

If you're serious about contemplating suicide you should put that decision on a time-line and chill for a while.

When I get the anxiety I sit it out. I always feel better after a banana, a sandwich and some milk. That sounds ridiculous, but I assure you it's not ridiculous to me. I get them frequently and it's rarely a joke.

Speaking of which I had a one month-long anxiety attack ealier this year. That was horrible I woke up in adead panics almost daily. I ended up pacing a lot and trying to sleep it off. No kidding I think my cat helped me a lot with my mental state. I don't have a dog, but my kitty is pretty tight.

I'm just saying that you might be in a bad spot as of this moment. But look two moments into the future. Now ten. Now a few thousand. You will not always be in a bad spot. You have the possibility to move to a better spot.

I hope tomorrow is a little better for you than today.

You will die eventualy. That is certain. How bout getting off the fucking computer and try living, that's way harder. I am writing this in tears, because you remind me of me. Can't say I had it worse than you, but many of my problems existed (some still do) only in my very limited point of view which was far away from the truth. Please seek help from priest, friend, doctor, anyone... Your mind is not the world, only a part of it, and please don't go until you discover as much as you can.

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I've thought about self-immolation in front of the ADA. But they'd just report me as some schizophrenic guy who believed in the "conspiracy" that he was poisoned. Plus that would be a horrible way to die unless you were on a sufficient amount of opiates. If I did that I'd take a gun with me to blow my brains out if the fire would be too painful.

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I felt "poisoned", sick, depressed, and not my normal self. At first thought it was mold or solvent poisoning from a drug extraction I was doing. Found out about mercury being 50% of silver fillings. Then started the process of getting them removed. What do you mean by medications? The chelating agents or the psychiatric drugs?

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Anti-Depressants, mood stabilizers, pretty much everything. Lost count..

you can't list any?

There's so many; Here's some

Anti depressants: Zoloft, Cymbalta, Wellbutrin

Mood stabilizers: Depakote

Anti psychotics:Zyprexa, risperdal, saphris

There's probably more but I can't remember all of them.

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Yes

Are you taking your medications daily? Sometimes when you go cold turkey your condition worsens. I am presently on Zoloft, Depakote and Zyprexa and I know if I stop taking them then I am basically fucked. You really need to have your blood checked, especially if you are on Depakote. Please do not kill yourself, give life a chance.

Did you do lots of drugs like DMT as a kid?

Do you drink lots of coffee now?

Nah I didn't even start weed until I was 17. Did DMT once at age 19. Don't drink cofee at all actually.

Life is suffering. Not just for you, but for every living thing on this earth. Your suffering has been great, and while I ask that you try to reconsider your decision as your life is precious, I wish you peace, happiness and understanding.

Successful troll is successful.

You can't die, we need you to help us wake the sheeple :(

Go and make yourself do some stuff for other disadvantaged people. You'll feel better because, to paraphrase Agent Cooper, 'Giving is the only true and pure form of happiness'. You will also be a better person, feel a better person and deserve it.

My mom went through similar problems shortly after giving birth to me. If I were you, please do chelation for yourself with horserail, zeolite and benotinite clay. As for a question: how many fillings and what did you think when you realized you were being slowly poisoned?

I've already tried everything. I've pretty much given up I think. I'll give it one or two more years and see how I am then. If things haven't improved then there's no point of continuing. I had 4-5 average sized mercury fillings. I realized I was poisoned when I found out what I thought was making me sick. At first I thought it was mold or something but then I found out that dental amalgam is about 50% mercury. I hastily got them removed by my general dentist. He didn't protect me from the mercury vapors so I felt the effects almost immediately after he removed the mercury. The rest was history..

I'd really focus on chelation my friend. I know it's hard. My mon was sick for about two years but after she had her fillings removed her health improved month to month...

I've already tried chelation. Nothing has been working for me.

As you said, taking the fillings out only seen to aggravate the symptoms. My mom was bed-ridden for ate sat two months after she had 13 MA fillilings removed. Progress may seem slow but please don't give up. Your friends and family love you.

I'm not giving up quite yet. I'm 23 now. If I haven't improved by 27 than I think it will be time to say goodbye at that point. But yeah, removing them is an absolute fucking nightmare. The amount of mercury you get exposed to is gargantuan. I wish I would have just gotten my teeth extracted or went to a biological dentist. Oh well, what's done is done I suppose eh?

keep up with the nootropics, try to maintain a positive outlook on life and give it until you are 27. You might surprise yourself

23 - 27 were the worst years of my life. I don't kow why.

For some reason 28 to now has been a breeze by comparison.

If this continues the best years of my life will be my seventies.

That is a good plan, give yourself and science a few years.
Maybe try n-back training software, it is super hard but seems to create some brain changes that seem to help some conditions - where you say the meds are not helping. I would also try the binaural meditation stuff, there are reports that helps.

There is alot of pollution in indo, do you eat alot of fish? How is your water, can you get distilled or purify it somehow?

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I'm a regular there.

I know that green formulas (Specifically ones with a lot of Cilantro) are able to leech metals out of your system... even heavy metals like Mercury. Some damage has been done I'm sure but I also wouldn't buy that it's irreparable. The human body is a pretty remarkable thing when used in tandem with the mind. To presume that you can't reverse the declining quality of your life would be incredibly short sighted me thinks... but then again I'm not mercury poisoned sooooo.

I've tried virtually everything. Including cilantro.

Yeah I suppose consuming nothing but Cilantro juice for weeks or years in order to clean your body of mercury could make you equally suicidal.

Killing yourself is the easy way out. Stay alive to stick it to the man

Being alive is hard with a head full of heavy metals. And I disagree with you on the saying that suicide is the easy way out. Pulling the trigger and jumping off a damn building takes balls. I've been close to that point.

Do you have people in your life that love you? Suicide is a very selfish act... If you feel like you have nothing to loose (and I would imagine you feel this way if you consider suicide) then you should spend your time fighting against the things in your life that have wronged you. A noble cause for your life... to help and protect others that may be in your situation. The positivity that can come from such a cause can help others and also work toward healing you. It can give you focus and positivity in a sea of negativity.

Yes, I do. That's the only reason I haven't done it yet. But I'm starting to lose hope that things will ever get better. I've been wronged and no one even acknowledges it. Also I disagree with the saying that "suicide is selfish". I'd say it's selfish forcing people who don't want to live to live.

No one is forcing you to live. You can choose that at any time. If you have people who care for you then it is probably love that has made you not make the choice. Love is powerful. It is all the more reason to fight a cause. Your claims are bigger then you.

I love you and I don't even know you. No... that wasn't sarcasm.

Feelsgoodman.

Would you be interested in working on a project to spread the word on mercury poisoning?

Might not pay much (at first) but you'd be making a difference.

Nobody would take my work seriously because I got diagnosed with schizophrenia because everybody thinks I'm delusional because I believe I got mercury poisoned. But I guess I could do it anonymously. What would be a good way to get the word out? I have no video editing skills or any skills really.

You can convince yourself of anything.

Either you want to be part of something that gives something back or you wallow in self pity.

All skills are welcome.

I'd like to give back but I don't have any way of giving back to the cause because nobody would take me seriously.

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Yeah I removed them several years ago actually. Haven't really recovered much.

Committing suicide is selfish. Think about those who love you. My dad died suddenly and It tore me up bad. Don't ruin a bunch of people lives because you can't handle life anymore. If you're able to type on a computer then you're better off than most people in the country. At least rob a bank first or something so they can buy back some of the happiness you steal away from their hearts

Have you considered instead of suicide you go on a badass world tour.

I imagine going to europe and backpacking across into India, spend some time with with the yogis, join a commune, leave the commune swim to thailand, be a snake charmer. So many awesome experiences that could potentially kill you and you could write such an amazing book if you didn't die!

When you die you are just nothing like before you were born. ANYTHING is better than nothing! I would rather be tortured by sadistic freaks with razorblades than die. You are free to give back this glorious gift anytime you please, but I really think it is foolishness at its purest.

File a class-action lawsuit and be immoralized as a hero, taking the cowered's way out cheats all of us!

Is there a test that measure mercury in your body? Is there anyway to flush it?

Have you gotten your filings replaced with something non hazardous? There is a special procedure for removing silver filings?

How/what were the parameters for your diagnoses? What made you decide to see a "doctor" to give you anti depressants or whatever? also, what drugs do they give you if you are a "Schizophrenic"? One last thing, I dont know you, but im sorry that this happened to you. Were all humans, and seeing or knowing of one die is sad, no matter what the circumstance. Good luck, if you ever need anyone to talk to, everyone is listening.

When you got your fillings removed did you get a gas mask from your dentist? And did you take heavy metal binding supplements months before and after the removal? If not, that was a big mistake and you poisoned your nervous system with mercury. That is for sure.

Did you try spirulina and chorella to bind mercury? Starting with low doses and constantly increasing the dose of chorella so you do not throw up even if you take 80 chorella pills a day? Wood garlic and cilantro make mercury move but you need high concentration of chorella in your body to bind the heavy metals and detox them naturally out of your body. You need also to drink a lot of clean water to help the detoxification process.

There are heavy metal detox programms out there that work and help repair your nervous system by providing high doses of omega 3 (eg. salmon oil capsules) and suplements with all essential minerals your body needs. After six months of such a programme you will be a different person and your brain activity will increase. You will not feel smarter, but you will feel that other people are increasingly dumber. That is the same effect when you run faster than others. You do not feel that you run faster than before but you can see that others are slower than you are, because the lack of direct relative comparison.

Next step is to get rid of the fluorides from your antipsychotic drugs.

How are you planning to do it? And when? And do you have any general requests for after you're gone?

Gooby pls

Life is suffering, it's what you do with that suffering that makes a difference. How can you make someone else's life better by how you live?

Look into the concept of redemptive suffering, maybe it'll change your life.

actually i have been there and thru counselling and support overcame the problem..i am now the only one out of 400 people that were being looked after..that has gone on and recovered and now has an steady job..well lost my marriage but have wonderful kids...consider ur actions ..i overcame

So, you really only have your own personal feelings that having your fillings removed caused these mental issues. A quarter of people have mental issues at some point in their life, and you're in your early 20s, a common time to suffer such issues.

I think you're looking in the wrong place for the root of your problems.

PS - Don't kill yourself. Be patient.

I pray that you don't end your life and I will be praying for your health. I can only imagine how scared and frustrated and helpless you might feel, but there is more to life than what it appears. My suggestion, unpopular though it will be, is to call out to Jesus, he's helped me more times than I can count in dealing with my own depression.

I am more convinced each day that mental illness is actually mental health.

Your natural state of being is having a reaction to this world. All the drugs and shrinks and experts are just helping people stay integrated into falsehood.

I am opining, but man the more people I talk to the more I realize that everyone knows that the matrix is complete bullshit and everyone is afraid to live without it.

What kind of work have you done to clear your chakras? Have you pursued many meta-physical options? Having your soul cleared of any bound spirits?

There is a lot of joy, truth and understanding that can come from meta-physics.

Please know that many many people care about and love you. Most of them you have never met. Perhaps just being patient and allowing these things to play out will bring you to greater peace. Find and stick with people who offer patience, tolerance, kindliness and love. Avoid and disengage all others.

Hang in there brother, the mid 20's are a great mindfuck. You should wait until your at least 35 before making life and death choices. Just survive through this tough time and more will be revealed later down the road.

Explain what you mean by "misdiagnosed"

Um...did you at least get the silver fillings taken OUT? If so, did that help?

This is the test you signed up for.

Why are you such a pussy that you see things you don't like and you just want to quit? Why can't you find the drive and motivation to do something about it? Either for yourself, or for others

I have 15 large fillings in my mouth, all silver. Is there a test I can get to see if I have mercury poison?

There are blood/urine tests you can do. But I'd argue that they aren't very accurate because the mercury binds to the fat cells very readily and is hidden deep in there. Especially in the brain and bone marrow.

If you decide to go this route, how about taking out some bad people with you on the way out?

Can you please take as many of these people with you when you go?

Ben Bernanke

Janet Yellen

Elizabeth A. Duke

Daniel Tarullo

Sarah Bloom Raskin

Jerome H. Powell

Jeremy C. Stein

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Federal_Reserve_System

PRETTY PLEASE? With sugar on top?

The only person on that list I know is Ben Bernanke. I'd rather take out my dentist and the people in charge of the American dental association and the companies that manufacture mercury fillings. I'm too peaceful of a person to do that though. I'd say every person has their breaking point though.

I smell troll

Also, you could stream it live online

ATTENTION WHORE

Does the earth revolve around the sun? Fuck yes it does. Happy hunting!

Fair enough. Personally, I've had substantially different anecdotal experiences with it, with a number of friends turning into mental mush in their adult years, including one with severe schizophrenia.

But we'll just keep on pretending marijuana is totally harmless. (It should still be legalised, I just find the utter delusion about its lack of harm, especially when hidden behind "reefer madness fearmongering" to be ridiculous.)

I'd be skeptical of this having been on the receiving end of someone who became schizophrenic after getting heavily into Marijuana